it doesn't hurt anymore

you're trying to hurt me like

 the ocean trying to wash away the shore

 or 

 fire eating away paper 

or 

the cold in summer

or 

empty promises

or 

broken hearts 

or 

goodbyes

but

 you can't hurt me. i'm already dead. 

who? me? afraid?

ME Afraid?

Growing up I was always told not to show that I was afraid.

BUT I am afraid and I don't think I can hide for much longer.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

human or robot

I not sure if I'm still human, I'm always doing what I'm told I don't ask much questions and I stay back in the shadows. We are all being controlled by something so aren't we all robots?

#different

They always told me I was different from everyone else. I told my grandma, she told me it's because I'm stronger than them. Me being a little kid took it as muscle, so I used it.  She always gave me the best advice but I always took it in the wrong ways. I get what she was trying to say now, those who know me know that I've been through a little and a lot of heartache and misery but having her words in my head always pulls me through. RIP Grandma<3