Not all dads are heroes

My memories of him are fading; there are days I forget all about him. The thought of 

him brings pain realizing all the things he promised but never kept; when he'd leave I

 was terrified he wouldn't come back. I remember this time he took me on a "trip" to 

his "friend's", I didn't realize that he was showing me as his weak spot if he wasn't a

 "good friend." It still makes me sick. He was there to protect me but that's never what 

it felt like. My hero was really a zero. Years passed terrifying things happened all I 

wanted was him, but everyone knows that he's in love with her and everyone says 

she is to addicting to ever come back from and it kills me every time I remember him. 

She has more on him than I ever could. I was little I didn't know that she had him 

wrapped around her finger he was a kitten all he had to do was stop eating what she 

put out, but he loved it like monkeys love bananas or how I loved him. He taught me to

 never let others walk over me but never realized he was letting her. To me he was my 

knight in shinning armor when really he was holding up a mask so I couldn't see how 

lost he was. He said he's not seeing her anymore and that things are going to change 

and he's gonna be my knight again, but I'm scared to believe him I'm done getting

hurt but for his sake I hope its true I haven't seen 

the real him in a long time.